Confessions of a Discovery Freak

What defines to discover something? (A)  Is it simply learning something new to you? (B) Is it learning something new to the world? If perception is everything then does that mean its (B), cause not one perception is the same or does that make it both (A) and (B)? Reality of the question is that in order to answer you have to understand that the way you apply (A) can create (B). Which is then another aspect to DISCOVERY.  I find myself recently in a perfect opportunity to explore insignificant questions about the world around me. Anyone will tell you to start the path of SELF discovery early.. Explore, discover and build as early as you can in your life.  I'm starting in my early 20's. I know basics about myself.. and I mean BASICS. I want more depth, hobbies and wholeness. Lets start with what I do know about myself....

• "I like to eat"- Anything and everything. I have some texture problems but I can get around it most of the time to try new things 😋 "I enjoy cooking and creating new things" and it is always an added perk to eat after all that work! 
• "I am a pothead"- Full disclosure people. Live all, tell all. Meditation and Smoking is apart of my daily routine ."No shame."
• "XXX"-Woman love sex, I love sex.  I have only had one REAL one night stand but I have had THREE long term serious relationship since i was 13. First love (1.5 years) , Toxic relationship ( 6 years)  , Real Love (1 year). I'm sure we will touch on all of these. I like to break things down.. Anyway, "SEX is SEX".  I think about sex a lot and I like to explore this topic... so buckle up!  
• "Wanderlust" - I want to learn about different cultures and perspectives by traveling and immersing myself. That's my desirable education. A good friend once told me, you can learn something from everyone. Even if you don't talk to them, sitting in a park every person who passes you, you have something you could learn from them. "EXPLORE THAT!"
• "I like to be healthy"- I'm working on this at the moment. I like eating clean, I like knowing where my food comes from. The plan is to start working out again, get to MY ideal body, toned and strong. I like to be mentally healthy... this is where I need the most work. I don't know my boundaries, trust issues, and insecurities well enough to truly say i'm mentally healthy. I have unhealthy self destructive tendency's. I know this about myself and which is why I have been exploring my mind so much more. It makes me question, it makes me driven to understand concepts of our world and everything that makes up myself and MY world. "I need to accept I am only responsible for myself. "
• "I don't have hobbies"- I NEED... NEED to explore this side of myself. I have FREE time and I don't know how I want to spend it most of the time. I like painting, I like writing (clearly), I like reading new books ( haven't found a good one in a bit - Open to recommendations ), I like early morning hikes, never actually did one unless I was camping but I wake up and like walking to the grocery store so I think I would... I like yoga, I know a few moves.. must explore that. I enjoy photography, not sure I have a particular eye for it but its something that brings me joy and I'm photo hoarder. "I need to invest in myself."

So far that's it. Not a complete picture but its a great start, the start of this glorious outlet and where we will be heading. I will never claim to know anything for certain..I write freely, as a form of meditation to explore thoughts and ideas; Which should be a good enough exclamation of my writing style. Its directly from my mind, with a lack of editing. "Kind of a Take me as I am" concept . Everyday could be something new, but always one step closer to understanding. A lot of new things happening this week.  There's bound to be some trouble! Can't wait to spill THAT tea 😘

XOX,

SCARLETT ♥